I dreamt
last
night
that I was being
tracked
followed monitored judged desired by
the best surveillance man in the business
that he could tell I wanted him
even when I looked a picture of normality
that his dark gaze could pierce me
whenever he turn't it toward me
and never often enough.
I dreamt
that everything I did had an audience
that the secret significance of my actions
had someone to appreciate them.
I dreamt
of chemtrails and HAARP arrays
and distant lovers,
desirous of my scent like the old stasi
watching me
waiting
aching for an excuse to render me
extraordinarily
I woke.